And as they were reclining at table and eating, Jesus said, “Truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me, one who is eating with me.” They began to be sorrowful and to say to him one after another, “Is it I?” (Mark 14:18–19)
I must confess that I was struck by the attitude of the disciples here when I read this story this morning. My reaction would have been akin to Peter’s when Jesus told him that a threefold denial was on the way—”No way, Lord! Not me! I’d never do that!” It is easy to get defensive.
The disciples here are not like that. Each one considers the possibility that it could be him. No denials. No protestations of devotion. That shows quite a level of self-awareness and honesty. It’s as if they think, “Yes, much as I hate to admit it, I could imagine myself capable of that given the wrong circumstances.”
“Is it I, Lord?”